This fucked up world.

The moment you realize that you are likely to have feelings for someone you've never met in person, you may also start to think that you weren't made to be where and who you currently are. And such feelings can screw with your head and heart in ways you never though possible because, not only have you never believed in strong passionate emotions, but you never even felt like YOU could have them.
It's like jumping into an empty pool because, deep down inside, you know something will hold you.